Rediscovering these blogs has made me feel, if only in part, that I'm still in contact with my friends. Which sounds a little depressing or melodramatic but isn't really. I've been in a sort of limbo for the past month, not really talking to anyone except Hannah, moving in and out of my classes arbitrarily, and either working too much or too little. It kind of feels like all my feelings have been neutralised. So I can feel a little bit sad, or a little bit happy, or a little bit angry, but anything really passionate is kind of on hold right now. I think it might just be the regular beginning-of-fall blues, which descends rapidly into the dead-of-winter horror. Hooray! ACAD is alright, but I really wish that a) I wasn't so shy and b) I had more than one studio class. It's hard being in an Art school and spending most of your nights reading textbooks and writing essays. The things I'm learning are really interesting, though, and I've already begun to feel the characteristic University Turnaround. I'm actually learning things that affect the way I look at the world! How foreign! Ooh, also, the ACAD library has this little nook made out of boxes of National Geographics dating back to 1923. Some genius set up a group of chairs in the shape of a bed back there, so I like to see it as the communal student bedroom/archive of aristocratic American ads. It's pretty beautiful.
I'm missing you all more than I can say. I am super looking forward to our joyful reunion, so I can get back to not being lonely.
LUV YAZZ
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I miss you, Rita! I'm glad we're using this again, too. I hope you find ACAD fulfilling, despite the loneliness. Hopefully I can see you when I come back for Thanksgiving maybe perhaps?
Yay, university turnaround! Boo, lack of social contact. Boo, lack of studio classes. Boo, winter horror. I say thee and me need to make a mutual agreement to not slip into major-introvertedness this winter so that perhaps we can avoid the seemingly-inevitable 8-month slump of doom, for that is something I'm REALLY not wanting this year, and REALLY not wanting for you this year (especially having experienced the SAD-in-isolation myself last year *shudder*), or for anyone else for that matter. I'm now feeling inspired to create a 'not becoming depressed this winter' task force for to support one another in lessening factors that we find increase our susceptibility to said condition. Anyone else with me?
I second that motion! I'm completely on board!
Me too! Even though I don't know how that would work...
Rita! Lovely to see your blog. I have missed thee so. I wish the library here was as exciting. But no, it's just overwhelming and un-fun.
Love you, I ALSO don't wish to be in an 8 month slump...so across Canada we can all work together to avoid it, yes? hahah. I want to see you all again....seriously...it hurts.
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