Tuesday, January 16, 2007

Pathos

There was a time, long ago, when I swore to update this blog every day. There were also times when I swore to talk to someone new every day, practise my guitar every day, write every day, and read a chapter of whatever book I was reading every day. Now I've decided to draw every day, and boy howdy is it frustrating. I've avoided life drawing for so long I've forgotten how to do it. After about 10 or 20 minutes, the same thing happens. I realise that everything I've drawn so far is wrong, and I just give up. There's no chance of going forward and there's no chance of going back and correcting what I've done. So I just sigh heavily and try drawing something else. It actually surprises me how depressing my "passion" can be. My years of settling with mediocrity, of sticking with what I'm good at and not even trying to go any further, have finally come back to bite me in the butt. Just a few more days...if I make it over the hump, it'll be clear sailing from here on out.

Speaking of mediocrity, I've come to the realisation that I can't deal with customers. If somebody comes to me with a complaint like "you only put one slice of meat on this sandwich?" or "I ordered a small. This is too small," or "what do you mean you can't take my hundred dollar bill? Money is money," I just smile and agree with them and make myself seem incompetent. I can never assert myself or solve problems or give anyone the right information. I can't direct people to the complaints box when they're blind with rage, or give a straight answer to a simple question. "I don't know" has become my mantra, and one of these days it's going to get me into trouble.

I'm in a whiny mood today, fellas.

4 comments:

Hermit said...

Hooray for blog updatage.
Ergy, oui, my daily photo dealy died as of Sunday, I think that deciding something like that is basically setting myself up for failure, bleh. Herm, yes, I think I would have similar issues as you with the whole customer thing, although I dont really see why people get SO peeved about something as dumb as a slab of carcass on their processed grain conglomeration, but thats just me. Ah well, the customers always right, no?
Hermy

Kesineeee said...

hey hey hey now, haha, even though I don't complain about annoying things, I am still an avid meat eater! haha.

Kesineeee said...

And no...the customer is hardly ever right...too bad we just have to pretend they are, and become miserable instead. BOY I just loooove the service industry.

Ratty said...

I have decided that any resolution beginning or ending with 'every day' is foolish. It sets you up with this strict and pretty drastic change to one's life that is rarely sustainable, and then when one misses a day, as one will eventually due to whatever circumstance, you decide that you've failed and there's no point in continuing even though, really, even doing whatever you've decided to do once per week is an amazing improvement over the rarely-to-never that generally precedes the resolution. As well, one's resolution which is generally meant to improve one's life then becomes this burden that contributes stress and a feeling of failure and doom to life, thus off-putting any potential benefits. Yes, I'm an advocate of moderate resolutions. As for customers, I am of the mind that you should just coin the phrase 'I'm sorry sir/madam, you are irrational. I can not help you with that' as your single response to angry customers.