I have realised something.

I have realised that I hate facebook. It actually feels like part of me dies when I log on; like I've lost something that I will never, ever get back. I get a sinking feeling in my heart when I check a friend's page and realise that they've been having a billion times more fun than I ever will. I get lost in the pictures of smiling faces that I recognise, in places I will never visit. It just reinforces the divide between me and the people I miss so much. And that's why I hate being addicted to it.