Oh my goodness hello!

Rediscovering these blogs has made me feel, if only in part, that I'm still in contact with my friends. Which sounds a little depressing or melodramatic but isn't really. I've been in a sort of limbo for the past month, not really talking to anyone except Hannah, moving in and out of my classes arbitrarily, and either working too much or too little. It kind of feels like all my feelings have been neutralised. So I can feel a little bit sad, or a little bit happy, or a little bit angry, but anything really passionate is kind of on hold right now. I think it might just be the regular beginning-of-fall blues, which descends rapidly into the dead-of-winter horror. Hooray! ACAD is alright, but I really wish that a) I wasn't so shy and b) I had more than one studio class. It's hard being in an Art school and spending most of your nights reading textbooks and writing essays. The things I'm learning are really interesting, though, and I've already begun to feel the characteristic University Turnaround. I'm actually learning things that affect the way I look at the world! How foreign! Ooh, also, the ACAD library has this little nook made out of boxes of National Geographics dating back to 1923. Some genius set up a group of chairs in the shape of a bed back there, so I like to see it as the communal student bedroom/archive of aristocratic American ads. It's pretty beautiful.

I'm missing you all more than I can say. I am super looking forward to our joyful reunion, so I can get back to not being lonely.

LUV YAZZ